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Feb. 24th, 2013 09:28 amThey say that if you cut straight across the growth will be clean and not cause trouble. They say also not to crop them close but he cropped his close. At first you may look like you're crazy but when the white returns you won't look so crazy and then as the edges round from contact with surfaces you won't look crazy at all. Dick was done and it pleased him being done. He set down the device and liked how it made a lever of a wedge and also a lever of his own hand but against two wedges. He swept the clippings into the can and left the room.
In the other room she was there in bed. She looked up at him.
"I may be gay and I want to have a baby."
Taking her in his arms a high place was formed with a time of its own and the sky there was heavy and started to fall of its own weight and in time a light came but the light went away and with it all heaviness. He asked her if she wanted a cigarette.
"I can't even tell if we just had sex."
Binky talked further in this vein but he knew he could trust her because she was childlike and not as good as him at anything, especially but not only manly pursuits. Even when she talked in this way she deferred to him. He handed her a cigarette.
"Thanks, Scoobles."
Bill was also there and was taking a cigarette from Dick. Bill always seemed sarcastic but never said anything precisely warranting sarcasm. His main concern was seeming slightly harder-boiled than Dick so that Dick seemed less like a posing man. He cared only about what was happening with Dick and also manly pursuits they could share, at which he was better than Binky but never as good as Dick.
Bill poured his whiskey into a glass of water and handed it to Dick with the whiskey bottle. Dick poured the drink back into the bottle and drank from the bottle and handed the glass back. He lay down to think about not thinking.
Binky and Bill withdrew to the other side of the bed out of respect for how alone he was being. Soon they were making small deferential noises. Dick looked out the window across three lakes at the second growth timber. On a bench by the wall four Indians and one sly Negro deferred in his direction.
He felt the life lesson coming.
It was here.
A man hardly gets how it gets a man.
[After reading The Nick Adams Stories et al. over a few days.]
In the other room she was there in bed. She looked up at him.
"I may be gay and I want to have a baby."
Taking her in his arms a high place was formed with a time of its own and the sky there was heavy and started to fall of its own weight and in time a light came but the light went away and with it all heaviness. He asked her if she wanted a cigarette.
"I can't even tell if we just had sex."
Binky talked further in this vein but he knew he could trust her because she was childlike and not as good as him at anything, especially but not only manly pursuits. Even when she talked in this way she deferred to him. He handed her a cigarette.
"Thanks, Scoobles."
Bill was also there and was taking a cigarette from Dick. Bill always seemed sarcastic but never said anything precisely warranting sarcasm. His main concern was seeming slightly harder-boiled than Dick so that Dick seemed less like a posing man. He cared only about what was happening with Dick and also manly pursuits they could share, at which he was better than Binky but never as good as Dick.
Bill poured his whiskey into a glass of water and handed it to Dick with the whiskey bottle. Dick poured the drink back into the bottle and drank from the bottle and handed the glass back. He lay down to think about not thinking.
Binky and Bill withdrew to the other side of the bed out of respect for how alone he was being. Soon they were making small deferential noises. Dick looked out the window across three lakes at the second growth timber. On a bench by the wall four Indians and one sly Negro deferred in his direction.
He felt the life lesson coming.
It was here.
A man hardly gets how it gets a man.
[After reading The Nick Adams Stories et al. over a few days.]
