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I can feel myself changing. I guess it makes sense that now's when it would happen, if it ever did. Not that it always isn't, i.e. not that I always am not--amusing 1st/3rd person merging, that, reflecting just the feeling I mean--but one [merge complete] seldom feels the air move to let one know it's happening. Breezes of neglected possibility-worlds are licking through the stress tears. But that's not mostly what's happening, mostly everything's just suddenly opaque.

You need a strong footing. I clung to knowing what was what, and that worked well. It's less interesting now that the chance of being something seems real.

I'm also starting to see myself as a character, and I can't tell if that's a good inoculation against being one or just what one notices when one no longer cares to not be one.

One plus one plus one. Two should do something for a change.

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