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Jun. 24th, 2007 02:33 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
proximoceptionYou make your own fun but there needs to be enough you.
When there's not everything else is too much or too little by turns. Not what you need or swamping your needs such that you forget what they were exactly.
One of my grandmothers appeared in a napdream this evening, I was surprised how sharp she was and how youthful. She also seemed rather unhappy, though. That's not quite the word for her demeanor, actually: maybe more like, incapable of ever being happy with anything again. Death as completed disillusionment. As though only then do we swallow the fruit of the tree. I wonder if I mean what I dream. One of my first journal entries was about her funeral in I think Geneseo NY.
Naps make me lonely at night and seem so childish. Just look how melancholic they make me, damn things.
When there's not everything else is too much or too little by turns. Not what you need or swamping your needs such that you forget what they were exactly.
One of my grandmothers appeared in a napdream this evening, I was surprised how sharp she was and how youthful. She also seemed rather unhappy, though. That's not quite the word for her demeanor, actually: maybe more like, incapable of ever being happy with anything again. Death as completed disillusionment. As though only then do we swallow the fruit of the tree. I wonder if I mean what I dream. One of my first journal entries was about her funeral in I think Geneseo NY.
Naps make me lonely at night and seem so childish. Just look how melancholic they make me, damn things.
