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[proximoception]

Borrowed ambiens from my wife a couple times this last week, and it got me sleeping but on an unpredictable schedule. Also tonight I had some of the worst nightmares of my life - the full resources of my imagination were given complete access to my entire palette of my fears and displeasures. If that's even an intact metaphor. Anyway, it sucked, and I woke after a couple hours out of a sort of refusal to experience such things. I remember a Cassandra going on about the dangers of 'simulated sleep' in a conversation once. I wonder if this is one of them - nightmares this bad should definitely not be coming to someone who napped the whole weekend away. Unless that was the problem, buried worries about how behind I am in everything.

Guess I'll go work on that.

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[thelican.livejournal.com]

Those are awful experiences.

One of the truly horrifying parts of my going off Klonopin is the enduring effect of adrenaline flooding the system. It's ghastly, in that (very much as you describe your inflamed palette of fears and displeasures) the free-circulating adrenaline fastens onto the usually fairly inert substrate of my worries and fears and sculpts them into three-dimensional terrors. Definitely (as I'm sure you've been told) avoid having to rely on any sleep med.

[proximoception.livejournal.com]

Julie explained that you don't get much REM sleep on sleep drugs, though Ambien is way better than most, in her experience. So as soon as you're off it you get nothing but concentrated REM, to catch up, and that translates to nightmares. Yeah, I'd hate to be dependent on these.

[thelican.livejournal.com]

Yes, the so-called mirror image of withdrawal is bad, bad stuff.